Just when you thought it is real

why is it that in times that you thought that evrythings doing well... that's the time.. the perfect time that reality will stike you!!!!!!!!!! so damn hard!!! that you will really go back to reality... how come i never learn... why am i so naive... why di i believe people asimply because they told me to do so... i hate myself... and why is it that the ones we hold on to are the people who aren't really as reliable as we thought they are... it's so damn painful that after having a date with jay i will be reading testimonials of a girl... he's ex according to him saying such f***ing things... damn him to hell... i don't curse people but it's just too much for me to handle.... i always believe him but then he never failed to disappoint me.. I'm such a foolish wreck... damn joyce.. you're right... i should be careful.. and i am now... and f*** nalang talaga....