just when you thought you're contented

there are times in our life when we think that we have all that we need. but then a blink of an eye and you'll realize that you don't. when i found cecil knocking at the door of my soul i thought he would be the missing piece that i was looking for. and so a i thought he is, but then time startedto chenge everything... suddenly i have him yet i don't know him... i never thought that the guy i wanted so much could be this insensitive.. but what can i do.. i guess god has given me cecil to teach me to be patient and to know how to lower my hand at times... but to be honest i don't like it.. it's so awfully painfull..